Posts by fizzygrrl

The Way We Were

Hello my darlings, It’s been a long minute, amirite? I wanted to update on what’s been going on in life, partly because I miss the heck out of blogging and interacting people more on social media, but also because this blog serves as a sort of therapy to me. Where to start. My husband has been dealing with anxiety and depression for the last fourteen years or so, but he’s always been the “normal” one between the two of us. He was always able to manage through medicine and chatting things out, and it got him by. About 20 months ago, he dramatically shifted. We tried different medications, had constant contact with his doctors, and we worked very hard as a team to get him leveled out. When he said his depression had turned to the despair of not wanting to wake up in the mornings, we got him into therapy and on a new medication toot suite. Which went horribly wrong, as some medications do, and the despair turned into active suicidal thoughts. That he felt able to talk to me about those thoughts is the thing I am most thankful for in the universe right now. I won’t let myself think of how my life would be right now if he hadn’t. Because I don’t fuck around at all with anything dealing with suicide, I immediately called all his doctors and took him directly to the hospital. I’m also beyond grateful he came with me on his own, because I would have straight up called an ambulance and I didn’t want to do that to him. He was ready for help. He was terrified, but he was ready. And after evaluating him, they admitted him for the week. He’s home now, and he’s doing really well. He...

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“I’m me.”

Hello my loves! Last year, I was invited to do an interview for DiversifYA by the lovely Marieke Nijkamp to discuss life with OCD. The first question of that interview was “How do you identify yourself?” At the time, I approached the question solely from the perspective of discussing my disorder, but I found it difficult to answer. I’d asked the interview to be put on hold for awhile, but when it came time to post it a few months back, that question popped out to me again. “How do you identify yourself?” I’m a very open person. I’ll gladly discuss anything with anyone for whatever reason. I’m an open book. I like that about myself. Living an openly honest life is very important to me. And in private, when someone asks me how I identify, I have no apprehension about specifying who I am. In all my years, not a single person has been even slightly shocked by my explanations. If you know me at all, even just online, I doubt you’ll be clutching pearls by the end of this post. I’ve said to multiple people over the years that I’ve deliberately never made a post about my sexuality or gender identity because I hadn’t had a reason to. That doing so would feel like I was announcing for the sake of announcing. Not to say that is a bad thing to do in any way. Cheers to absolutely anyone who has the stones to shout from the rooftops who they are. But I couldn’t find a justification for myself. I mean, I’m a married, stay-at-home mother of two. What does my identity matter to anyone, really? Aside from that motivation, I’ve had a tremendous amount of trouble in my 34 years trying to find the words to...

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Are You There, God? It’s Me, Fizzy

Hello my loves! When I was a kid, my mom told me there are three things you never discuss with people who aren’t the closest of family members or the dearest of friends; Politics, Abortion, and Religion. Eh, well. I’m a rebel. Or an idiot. It could go either way. A bit ironically, the invention of the internet seems to have sent that rule to shit. Facebook in particular seems to be the place your former high school classmates and distant relatives go to be really horrible, intolerant people. My relationship with religion has always been tenuous at best. I grew up going to church every weekend with my grandfather. He’d come pick me up in his wonderfully cliche old dude car, and we’d walk to church with my grandma from their house. After the service he’d always give me a new book, and she’d give me either one of those rock hard oatmeal cookies with the plastic white frosting, or a Werther’s Original with at least four years of dust on the wrapper. I still love those oatmeal cookies. That plastic frosting is friggin’ delicious. I liked church. I would go to the youth group classes in the morning, but then got to sit in with the adults for the main sermon. I’ve never done well just sitting and listening to people talk, so I would read the Bible in my corner of the pew while my grandma gave exasperated sighs at my inability to sit like a lady whilst contorting to read. I remember the exact day I hit a bit of a wall with religion. It was my third or fourth pass through the Bible, so I’d read this part before, but I guess until this moment, I was too young to understand what I was...

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Fizzy Fangirling – An Interview with Heidi Schulz

Hello my loves! Today I bring you an interview with amazing Middle Grade author and MWW faculty Heidi Schulz! 1. First up, tell us a little bit about yourself. Yes, I am asking for those bios that make us all go, “BUT WHO AM I!?” WHO AM I? I’M JEAN VAL JEAAAAAAAAN! I often, quite randomly, burst into song because I like to pretend I am living in a musical. The only problem is I dance worse than I sing—and I don’t sing well. At all. I live in Oregon with my best friend/husband of nearly twenty years and our fourteen-year-old daughter. They are my two favorite people on earth. We share our home with a dog, named Pepper Pots, and our yard with four chickens: Black Apple, Matilda, Fat Amy, and Liza Minnelli. (More about them later.) I write books for children, or as my twitter bio and business cards state, “I lie to children for fun and profit.” I think you’re cool. Yes you, reading this interview. I like pie. 2. Your first book, HOOK’S REVENGE, is one of my most favorite Middle Grade books of all time. The sequel, HOOK’S REVENGE: THE PIRATE CODE, is coming out this Fall! What sort of adventures can we expect from Jocelyn Hook this time around? You are so kind to say so. Thank you! There are quite a few things in store for Jocelyn. She explores a lot more of the Neverland—places both wondrous and deadly. There is more of Mr. Smee and the Hook’s Revenge crew, more Peter Pan, and a lot more Roger. We also get to see how Jocelyn deals with a new character, Evie. She came to the Neverland as Peter Pan’s new mother only to be promptly kidnapped by pirates! (But don’t be too hard...

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Fizzy Fangirling: An Interview with Nicole Sohl

Hello my sweets! Today I bring you an interview with the lovely Nicole Sohl, Associate Editor at Thomas Dunne Books and Macmillan Films, faculty member at this year’s Midwest Writers Workshop, and all-around fantastic person! 1. First off, how long have you been an editor? What made you want to dive into this wacky business in the first place? It’s a wacky world, indeed! And I’ve had the pleasure of being an editor in it for about four years now. It was something I ended up exploring in college. I was an English major –shocking, I know– and when sophomore year came around I figured I better start interning somewhere in some industry to build up my resume for when graduation sneaks up. So I took a look at my English dept’s website and lo and behold they listed publishing internships on top of publishing internships. Before seeing that I honestly had never considered the “business” of getting books out into the world; I had only considered the authors themselves, I guess. Once I saw the descriptions of those internships, it all kind of clicked. Never having writing ambitions myself, I was pretty uncertain about what I wanted to do with this English degree I’d gone and saddled myself with and, well, there was the answer! I spent the rest of my college years interning mostly at agencies and was more than settled on the publishing track when graduation at last came. 2. What genres do you acquire? How important is the genre, or will you take on something different just because it gives you the feelings? I read across a lot of genres, actually. Because I’m in this wonderful odd duck of a department, I have a lot of flexibility and just need to make sure anything I’m...

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